What I have done wrong?

I call only think of this place to really express myself now.

The feeling of left out in a group gang is back & I really hate this feeling.

I kept telling myself today aiya, she only ajak two of them.. dont feel bad. friendship & interest cant be forced just like relationship. as I kept 'lying' myself that I am feeling okay, there she goes tagging and thanking everyone else except.

What's going on?

I am not even notified.

And I am none of them really notice my absence...

This happened during the M lapan belas showcase & I tried to act cool to laugh over it. I was hurt.

I acted like I am not..

and today evening, 'I have no friend' thought crossed my mind. maybe all these while I like keeping myself occupied so I dont have time to think of negative things.

Who understands me?

Recovered Not

I thought I did.

I still care.

I am still bothered by it.

This sucks.

No one will understand this fully.

Why this timing?

I have better things waiting for me to do.

This is the place where I pour out my inner thoughts that I don't know how and who to share with.

Needed to express.

Please act like you didnt read this if any of you come across this.

Work Distraction

Currently occupied.

mind has less time to wonder now.

work and new friends keep me occupied

:) that's a good thing for me.

Photograph & Hello

Hello...

I lost a gem

A lifetime regret.

Better not

wanna express wanna say but can't

dnt know who can I say to. dnt know how should I say it.

better not.

am I doing it right, SL?

I don't know what to do

are they waiting for me to get everyone together?

they want to meet up.

but I don't know what to do.

I want but I cant.

she voiced out. he voiced out.

they voiced out.

I saw it.. I felt it but I cant and dont know how to react towards it.

sorry guys.

im only getting the girls together.