我开心吗?

没人的时候，我会觉得我最近笑得很累。

但我在面对自己时，我知道我不这么开心。

我的问题，我自己知道。他也知道。

可是，他们不知道。

Migrant Problems

Lotsa news on immigrants due to war fare in Syria etc that causes many immigrants to flock into Austria and other European countries.

Many died for finding their ways to cross the borders.. pass the sea... pass the fence..pass the custom...pass the immigration

Europeans do not want their countries to be flooded with immigrants. The number of immigrants are uncountable. Those countries cannot continue to take in people endlessly.

Are the Europeans wrong?

Are the immigrants wrong for having war fare in their home?

Leaders in related countries are having a tough time addressing this issue. It is inhumane to STOP innocent immigrants to enter; It is unpleasant situation where angry citizens will voice and want this to be stopped.

Seriously a tough question.

This should be a collaborative effort among EU. They should tackle this problem by reducing war fare in affected areas and get other countries to take in migrants. If other countries dont wanna take in migrants, they must at least contribute financially.

Why would other countries bother helping? This is like non of their business. They will just let the countries nearby to deal with this issue and shake their legs.

How to get them involved?

Journalists and media should continue to raise awareness on this issue.

Easy to say, hard to do.

More lives will be taken in this fight.

Stop explaining

I will only explain to people that want to listen to me.

Not Knowing Our Strengths and Weaknesses

it was an interesting brain-stimulating session with linda.

I really like how she pointed out questions and made me think further.

I thought she can easily point out questions and the fact that she only think of those questions while discussing the role play with me. I am still very impressed with your questions! My brain doesnt really ask a good why.

after the role play discussion, we started discussing on strengths and weaknesses.

I may be bit harsh and straight forward. Many of your concerns and weaknesses are also mine. I know that no matter how hard I were to explain to you on that, you wouldnt believe me. So, I just kept quiet and try to talk less about myself since I am not the focus. 

You being lost of not knowing your own strengths and weaknesses brings back alotttttttttttttttt of memories and mixed feelings to me.

I looked stunned and amazed in the cafe at how u not know yourself but I myself didnt know about myself too. Someone knows me more than I do.

We are great failures. 

I was helping you to list your strengths and weaknesses? Needing someone to tell us what are we and what we need to do makes me realized that how handicap can a normal person be.

Shame within myself. I may sound very pro just now but while I was correcting you, I was also indirectly slapping my own face.

I gotta thank you too, Linda.

Thanks for reminding me on my weaknesses and thanks for making my brain think.

7.34!

I made it!

I woke up early and hit the target that I set for myself.

Slow but I am feeling it already.

I am going finish within 75 mins for SCR!

如果上帝給你三樣東西，你要什麼？

I am going to answer this HONESTLY

based on what LPC wants.

choices are as below: [obtained this from here]

1. 一張600萬的支票。　　

2. 一輛200萬的汽車 。　
3.  一個100級的QQ號。　　　
4.  一家七星級酒店。　　　  　
5.  一個知心愛人。　　　
6.  一張偶像的簽名照。　　　
7.  一個永遠不吵架的家。　　　　
8.  一隻可愛聽話的寵物。　　　
9.  一個多活10年的資格。
10  一個父母長命百歲的願望

Too Lazy to Explain

The next time when a lot of them are asking me why,
I will just answer ' I am too poor to buy rice to eat. ''



I didnt take pill.

I am healthy.

I am not anorexic.

The importance of using brain

I may not be as critical and analytical as you... but you made me realized how important is thinking.

I was childish for wanting a job that does not require thinking back in my high school.

''toilet lady also I dont mind.''

Now, thinking may not be thatttt enjoyable but it gives another kind of satisfaction when I can figure out a thing on my own. I can answer something without the help of others.

I am too lazy to think and often take shortcuts by asking people.

There are many times that we can always do it by ourselves.

We should always put the-ask-people-for-help  as the last resort.

I was overly dependent and ignorant to understand more.

Time for a real change.

You ran with me

I dreamed that we ran a marathon together. :)

I was the fastest in the girl category.

This marathon involved running on top of cars, running down and up the stairs etc.

End up we need to find some sort of treasure in a japanese restaurant.

You helped me in the end when I couldnt find the treasure.

Such a great dream.

:)))

Birdy-Wings

Braces and Specs

My mother asked me to take off my specs and asked me smile in a way that my braces cant be seen during my graduation photo shoot.

pc w/o her specs? pc w/o her braces? I dont wanna look blur and foolish. How weird is that when the family photo is out, I cant even recognise who was the one wearing the graduation gown.

first of all, why wanna hide my braces? I can smile with teeth thanks to my braces! Im proud to wear it. I never seen myself smile so brightly and confidently last time.

Im gonna take off my braces soon. Is been quite a journey. Time just passes.. month by month... and towards the end with my braces.

Not like I wanna pay another few thousands to have another braces with me. It is something that has been with me for some time. jiu bu she de. 

Miss.. so what if I miss it.. I cant be wearing it for life. I gotta move on life w/o braces soon.

I only start missing when I know I dont have much time left with it?

my fan jian is beyond description. 

I'm not all great

I know what am I talking right now and Im not purposely acting humble here and Im not trying to get people to praise me.

I have been awakened.

although it was kinda late, yet at least I realized the facts before I go in even deeper into my own world.

Thanks alot.

your words are with me.

and I will remember what you said to me.

Thanks for correcting me genuinely.

I regretted for what I did yet I cant wind back the time.

How can I be so blinded by myself?

I no longer want to be a disable. 

Hit 5.55km Today!

Something to cheer me up today after numerous disturbing dreams.

I did it!

despite of the hot sun, I managed to jog the distance I set for myself today!

Less than one and an half months more to go.

Feels like time is running out.

Especially Im starting work on Sept 7.

I want to finish my 10km within 75mins!!

The epic fail interview

I went there so half-heartedly.

I didnt know how to answer his questions.

Before entering, I was thinking whthr to involve my brother in the interview but after filling in employee's form, I was kinda forced to reveal.

The interview was very screwed up.

Clearly they can see I was not prepared and not interested.

Anyhow I remained cool and calm towards the end and asked them whthr they have any advice for me and gan said, '' groom and dress well. tie your hair and make yourself look ready.''

entering bank isnt as easy as i thought. they were very particular and strict...

checking the certs one by one... other female candidates were all wearing blazer. I definitely looked freaking casual especially after comparing with them.

I was damn embarrassed by myself. I was so worried that my bad performance will affect ah leong.

I messaged ah leong and said sorry. he asked me not to worry... but I just want to say I really did really bad and although I no need to bother so much about this interview but .... I couldnt be not down by my performance.

A memorable interview experience.

Write it off as failure, but read it as experience

-Ho Dong-

Accordingly

when one said you should never do a particular thing, it does not mean that you forever cannot do that no matter what circumstances. it means that you need to think and see is it appropriate and advisable to do at that time being. 

Nothing is fixed. It is fixed cause we, humans fix it and want it to remain as it is. 

think accordingly

adjust accordingly

react accordingly

That's one of the valuable things he taught me.

I am one of the Two!

I Cant freaking believe that I was chosen!

Although she was saying that we Asians tend to be really humble.

It was all your nice words that I felt I dont deserve so much of your praises.

Not till that extent. Seriously.

Im more than overwhelmed and I was quite driven to be the one you expect me to be.

I know I have many lackings in many sense.

and having to be chosen for this programme especially meeting other stronger candidates, I really did not see this coming

What a day! :)))))))))))

I am a lucky girl.

No One

I want but I can't be asking.

Seeing them having does make me look sad.

I was even thinking of borrowing theirs to take photo.

Anyway, stay calm stay cool pc.

u are pc.

He was Right

Speculations are scary.

especially people who make assumptions based on things that they see from surface.

We cannot don't care about people.

We cannot be completely bothered too.

Another tough chapter of life.

She Remembered me!

I suddenly made an impulse decision to head to UTAR's Career Fair that day.

It was sad that things have changed since I left.

Sad that I cannot recognise the people around me.

Things clearly changed despite walking around the old building. The old building and some of the shops in Sg long remains the same but the companions and those old times cannot be rewind back.

I planned alot what to eat whenever I get to go back to Sg Long. 

But, I suddenly thought I should visit back the pan mee aunty after for so freaking long.

I sat and waited for her to take my order. She came to me and paused for several seconds and let out a bright smile. She recognised me! It feels damn good to have someone that know you. 

A photo for the memory

This shop and this bowl of pan mee have became not an everyday thing. 

First Hamster Ball Try Out

Luckily I tried this out in the end. What a deadly hot day @ Eco Majestic. 

I kept wondering why I went after coming back from there.

Older or Younger?

It just feels good to spend time with people whom you know for so long

Takut

My heart pounding as if I just committed a crime.

So scary > <

Less Paranoid with Weight and Food

Now Im wondering why did I struggle so badly and so hyper paranoid with my weight last time?

I am really happy with how I eat now..

Able to eat more for certain meals and then work out to maintain back.

Striking a balance is whats important :)

" not you cant eat, you need to know whens the right time to eat. especially for your case.''

Too Much of Something

Never good to have too much of something unless you are someone who really knows how to appreciate your surroundings.

I am someone who doesn't appreciate when I own certain things or when the things that are always there for me. It felt like they will always be there. Why bother.

This is something I need to work on.

To cherish. To appreciate.

To understand and be grateful with what I have.

Turned out to a happy day!

I was kinda down and moody before/ after the interview just now.

It was not something that I was looking forward for it.

They asked many questions.

I learnt something.

I dont think Im their best fit.

My heart doesnt want to do it.

Things werent so good until I received the email! :DDDDD

They finally replied! haahahahhahaa

Another chance for me.

happy happy happyyyy

keke

Look at yourself

None of us want to tell you things because of how you will react towards stuffs.

You cannot really blame us for not wanting to tell you stuffs.

We don't want to get more headache.

Last time, I used to share stuffs with you. Then you tell the world or either interrupt in a very narrow-minded way. How am I suppose to tell you?

We rather keep things towards ourselves or among ourselves to save more troubles.

I feel sad for you.

Our problems?

Your problems?

:/ 

I heard you

You reminded me again in dream.

幸福，其實一直都在身邊

最幸福的事或許只是下雨了，你發現包包裡剛好有放把傘，肚子餓了回到家桌上擺著滿滿的菜，身上沒錢的時候意外在口袋裡發現了上次沒拿出來的錢，最後還有一件事就是，你發現你喜歡的那個人也喜歡著你。 

幸福，其實一直都在身邊，不用急著找，或許只是一個瞬間，你就會發現它。

got this from http://blog.cw.com.tw/blog/profile/223/article/1748#sthash.LbbUoycI.dpuf

this put a smile on my face :) 

再次唤醒我原来幸福可以那么简单。

Jiak Ka Che

I eat rice... meat, okay ?

I didnt starve and I am not starving myself to death.

Thanks for your concern.

Getting lazier and sienz to reply this kind of questions or statements.

I tell you I got makan, u guys dont believe.

I tell you I exercise, u guys dont believe.

apa you guys want from me?

it is about time to stop being amused with my weight loss.

So long already man...

Zz