Presentations

I cant believe the transformations of myself for presentations.

The changes were small yet I didnt realize that each time, those mini changes made me braver each time. I used to remember how much I admire my friends back in high school. ''When am I going to be like her?'' 

The never ending anxious not only the day before, during and after.. but even few days or even weeks.

I still feel nervous before my presentation (depending on the subjects), but I moving towards what I want myself to be. :)))) 

No more clashing of Exam date!

I was devastated (abit dramatic but I kinda felt that way) when YH told me that me about the exam timetable draft. The long waited Surat Thrani trip clashing with monetary paper :( Kinda depressed. Thinking all sorts of ways I could do for this. And even till the extent that I maybe should just give up and attend my paper without further thought.

Fortunately, everything was so much easier with smaller class size. I was just purely trying my luck to change the exam date with the thought that FGO wont really bother me cause of my stupid reason. Anyhow It worked exactly how I wanted it to be.

Thank you guys. I am really grateful and happy that I can finally go to the surat thrani trip! :DDD

And thanks for cheering me up when I was down because of this :))))))))))

Braces do wonder

'' You wont even feel your braces after that.''

First response when I heart that line, I was like CRAZY! HOW COULD IT BE. I was being told when I was in the beginning stage of my braces. When I was still very uncomfortable with it, now I really dont quite feel or maybe I should put it in the way that I gotten used to the presence of my braces. Only when each time the first few days after I tightened my teeth, I felt something. Other than that, putting on braces not such a big deal after the first stage.

To this day, braces have been with me about half year. The changes come magically. You wont see immediate changes but as time passes, the teeth move as how your dentist commands them to. 

Looking forward for more subtle yet significant changes ::)

Learning Generosity from them

I am still embarrassed...

I want to be like them too.

Genuine Generosity to people around me.

Two Mini Sweet Surprises

Before the start of the class today, Yu Yan came to find me! 

It been likeee so long since I last met her in class. She stopped class and went for Art class...

Despite a lot of teachers complaint about her, I love having her around cause she listened only to me.

Cheeky at times, but every times she tells me she wants to give me her candies although she never bring any to me, I was like :')

I always get saddened when i think that my students wont remember me in the future..

I noticed someone was running towards my direction and I didnt know she was the kid. :D

Had a good short chat with her and she was updating me with her class. She gotten thinner and got a hair cut. Telling me what time is her class and normally she wont be as early as today, thats why I cant see her around. ''Today's the only one time I am early, teacher." HAHAHAHA cutee: ))) yes, you were always late for my class too. Hope to see her around Citta mall :)))))

As for Mr ong chern,

His mum was telling me that Ong chern didnt want to go Saturday class because he said i was not there. :') Thanks ong chern.. That cheeky noisy excited boy..

The kids make me feel good about my own presence :)) they aren't the only one that made me felt good about myself but when i think I am terrible, they are one of those few that make me smile too.

Cute little souls

I just got to jot down the random sweet touching things that kids did.

The fact that they are still innocent.. Things that they do come from their heart and they meant it.

I think I did mentioned before that I love kids because they are pure innocent genuine and simple, unlike us.

Adeline was replacing me that day since I had midterm. The kids with me were originally her students months back. She excitedly taught them again and asked whether they remembered her and of course, they couldnt. She asked Ern Qi. Ern Qi was really excited and said, '' i know. Teacher Pui Cheng!'' I was really happy when  Adeline told me but Adeline was sad of course. haha. Thanks Ern Qi. I really hope that I can bring some goods to the kids somehow and somewhere. I am worrying that they wont remember me too which I expect that to happen and therefore I will write things down for myself to remember. 

Kids asking me why I am not in Shisida and art class...

Ern Qi and Ern Ze.. 

randomly asked why I dont teach there. haha

I dont really know how to answer you. I felt the warmth.

They looked upset when I said I am not teaching there. 

And today, I was assigned to help out with some art craft during the MPM talk to entertain the kids.

I was busy helping out and chatting with the kids. There were like so many of them which I never see them before.We were trying to drag time by asking the kids to use marker to write on the cards. As I was busy running around, Yu Xin passed me hers.

These four words are priceless.

I will remember these.. 

Wars

No matter olden or modern wars, they were and are far more complicated that we can ever thought.

Like I never ever understand, we have something like natural disasters in this world that can cause many lives yet there are people out there killing each other. We do not need more wars. Natural disasters and accidents are bad enough. 2014 is depressing enough.

Last time, I felt awful and I still do about wars. I am always upset when I can't do anything about something I wish I could. I gave lotsa reasons that, '' aiya, there is nothing much I can do. All I can do is pray.'' Now that I can comprehend things like that better, I wish to know what is going in our world in a clearer view. I want to understand.

I wonder whether those people who supported the idea of war become numb towards the number of deaths. With so many wars and terrorism out there, you can easily hear hundreds thousands of souls being killed. As I see the number of deaths being reported, I could not imagine and we are very lucky that our country is not in war zone. 

I try not to be too emotional these days seeing things like that. I am trying to find out more than just being depressed. hopefully not getting emotionless to the number of deaths just like them.

World? Peace? When...