I need to Calm Down

Met so many that can speak so well these days.

and I noticed that when I get the chance to speak, I will rush my words or I will get stuck :(

I need to improve on this.

The real reason of joining marathon

dont know whether  you know, ambiga wasnt the reason that I joined marathon.

It was you.

I hid it from you.

and thanks to you, I made the choice of joining and forced to train for it.

Now, Im getting into marathons because of my own achievement and pleasant.

I hope Im not disturbing you.

I am just bad

I have so many bad thoughts in me.

reminds me of SL's '' is the thoughts and your intention.''

I clearly know I have bad thoughts now.

I still unable to control them properly.

Horrible feeling.

Have you forgive me?

I cant forgive myself

T T

Haps these days

Being occupied at the right time. Less time for my brain to wonder around.

Time passes faster when I am busy.

My New Batchmates

another new chapter of my life begins with them :))

our first photo together on Day 1

@Plaza Sentral after a group discussion

@ KLCC Maxis Centre with Priscilla

Our first private lunch alone LOL

The-running-around-Menara-Day

The uni feel is back

with Different people now but joining the programme kinda bring me back to uni life!

The life that I missed.

Right Choice!

Sept has been great for me!

With the end of AJ2015 and the start of my 'work'

I really think I did made the right choice to join the programme.

Meeting lotsa great and awesome people each day.

I kinda found a hiking/marathon/healthy buddy, Ms Leyla!

Let the healthy lifestyle continues ;D

我现在 lol 不出来

做人很辛苦。

我懒得写刚才在家里发生的drama. 明明没有事，可是他们两个老的那么担心。

我的错？

我很累

解释不解释我都累。

和你们讲， 你们又不明白。

我不想浪费口水对牛弹琴。

可能我真的该解释好点。

请你们信任你们的女儿好吗？

我自己已经很被自己的无能而被挫折。你们可不可以不要让我觉得我更更更无能。

现在，我冷静一点点了。我知道你们爱我和担心我。

请你们相信我，好不好。

T T

强逼不来

我好想比较明白。。有些事人家没有jio我，我就不要自己在房emo.

有一些聚会，自己明知人家不把你放在心里，被jio了还是飞去不可。可每当我出席这一类型的聚会，我都会感到寂寞。明明就不是和他们很friend，我还是要stick过去，把自己搞得辛苦和可怜。

以前，我非常纠结为何他们不约我。现在，我宁愿不被他们约出来。

不是就不是啊。

我希望我此刻心情不是在骗自己。

此刻，我的心情没有被打扰到 :)