Their Existences

Flashbacks of trips this year :

Foundations Gang
Serendah Sekeping
Ipoh-Kampar
Kuala Pilah

Having a trip with them was like just wanting to spend more time with them despite after foundation, we are separated to different universities and different courses. Thankfully, this gang has quite a few super onz people and also not so onz ones. When there are super onz people, the show will keep running.  Of course, things are getting tougher and tougher. 

Cute thing about them: When you ask, they will be waiting for each other. When you stop asking, they will ask you when there isn't any. err.. ask yourself. 

GE Gang
Kuching
Genting
Melaka
Penang
Broga Hill
Bidor-Sungkai-Kampar

This is where I find most of my travelling kakis :') Things just gotten better each time. Everyone takes turn in an indirect manner.

Jk was settling everything for Genting
Yh and Ah Long were being very helpful in fixing the itinerary
Now, KJ is trying hard to work things out for upcoming trip

They are the ones behind the scenes. Without them, things won't work out that well. Glad to have them around. Such thoughtful souls especially those that worried about me :'D Sorry if I stressed too much for trips, the over motherly side of me that can't stop worrying. Suddenly, I felt really grateful and joyful to have such a group that able to gather each sembreak. It's a gift. 

Thank youuuuuuuu!

In Between

Sometimes it makes me so worn up wanting to be good to both parties. It is really hard... Making life easier for people makes mine harder. I'm just trying my best here... What else can I do? Sigh. I understand what you meant :( Gotten so tired debating.

I choose not so think so much at times to avoid fear to overtake my decisions. Not that I'm not afraid, I don't to be controlled by fear.

Tough times.

Great Deal

Randomly searching for Korea trip and saw this! :p No harm trying right :)))

http://english.visitkorea.or.kr/enu/HD/event/enu_20131113/event.jsp

You get how I feel now?

Hurt over things I shouldn't be.

I'm really sorry to hear what's going on among you guys now. Suppose to listen completely and not say anything off path but what you went through reminded me of those times. The time when you guys did about the same to me. I was Stressed. Worried. Frustrated. Tired. An Complete Idiot. 

Last time, I will feel sad when I'm not included. This time round, honestly speaking I'm happy that you guys didn't bother including me in for pg which didn't make it later on.. and now this...

I had gotten over all these long time ago and chose not to think over it anymore. Please don't look for me only when you have no options. I know I'm not your priority, don't make me feel inferior.

Here, I wish those people will one day find out that things aren't as easy as it seems. If no contributions, voice less. Want to condemn, at least do something. People aren't your servant, dont take them for granted.

My Year 2 Sem 2

Gotten jot down a little more since I'm aging.. haha

Feeling really occupied and busy this semester. I like the feeling when I spend my time doing Something. Something good. In the beginning, it was really scary cause I cannot imagine how are we going to manage things well with 4 subjects in one semester. We did it anyway! :') It wasn't too bad. Hahaha It is always like that. Fear to take the step and felt great after accomplishing it. 

Started off to occupy myself with my job too in this semester. 

The ideal job for me: 

-with kids

-earning for whichever

-only half day

Training for this job was tough for me. So hard to please SH and PL. So tensed up especially when PL is around. Now that they are slowly letting me off, I am less pressured.

Of course, if only I can sleep more. It would be even better this semester. hahahaa me and my sleeeep.. I always think that we can perform better if we have sufficient rest.

Long semester or short semester?? Short semester for me! So I don't have all the time in the world to slack:D

Happy Day

Good Mood Today! Know whyy?? I was able to sleep till 12 plus noon :')

These days I gotta wake up early for either classes or work about 8am everyday :( I cannot even sleeeeeeep through my way once when I don't have to wake up that earlyyy cause my body clock is fixed. Saddddd Especially over the weekends since I need and mustt and Can't be late, I always jump up from bed in a  shocking manner or either why the heck my alarm rang soooo early on a beautiful weekend. LOL

Although today I automatically woke up around 8am again, I slept back.. Woke up several things and slept back several times. I don't even need to set my alarm. Awesomeness :') Energized after a good sleep in such cozy weather. No need to rush no need to worry... Life's great this way :D

Cheerful Family

Mini flashback of our conversation during our steamboat date! 

Elaine cant quite believe and understand that bsr and her family don't talk and communicate much during their meals and outings since Elaine's family isn't like that. 

Bsr's mum did all the talkings in family. This sounds rather familiar. I was partially laughing but her condition reminds me alot of mine too. Somehow similar but not exactly...

Awkward pairs of Lum Fam:

Me & eldest bro

Me & dad

other than that, it is fine. Attitude wise, 3 of us are the same. We talk but we don't talk that much at home.

Yesterday, during my lunch break, I was peacefully having my bak kut teh alone since my family wasn't around. Opposite of my seat, there was a cheerful family. Everyone was talking and chatting off happily. Sharing their daily life to one another. No awkwardness. There shouldn't be actually. What I like most is the daddy and mummy of that family were very cute. They did most of the talkings especially daddy in a very delightful manner. Not those typical strict fierce looking dad. I admire how they communicate. Spending a random Sunday like that is whole lot of joy. Can't directly jump into conclusion that they are a happy family but at least what I saw is the ideal way how I would picture a happy cozy family should be. 

Random admiring going on. Every family has its own way of communicating. As for mine, I don't think we are neither the worst nor the best. Now, I have gotten so used how the way I communicate to certain individuals even I myself find it hard to make a sudden change. 

Communication eliminates distance and barriers; But also creates unnecessary problems.