Ms Mag : '' I showed you this (video) , not knowing how many people will really get it but at least I will influence one person which is equivalent saving to a baby's life. ''
That's why I wanted to do the same thing. I maybe not as influential as my teacher, but I am trying to make a difference to bring awareness to my classmates.
We were only asked to stand up to present our points to class but I asked lecturer for permission to let me show Powerpoint slides together with a video. This act of mine would be Extra to others but I ain't doing it for marks. I'm doing it because I thought I have to.
Some of my group members thought I was insane for doing extra works although not required to, but I am willing to do it all by myself. It won't take long, sacrificing a bit time for this is definitely worth it.
The day before the presentation, I purposely saved the video into a few types files to prevent any 'accidents'.
An hour before showtime, I checked at the computer laboratory to double confirm As I thought, things didn't work out for me. Praying and comforting myself that the computer is old and lousy so it can't sense my video so I went to borrow my friends' laptops for further checking. Yup, you got it right. My video can't be read by either of the laptops. In my head,'' Gone Case.''
Nobody can really how understand why am I so stubborn over a no mark video presentation. That't because I really really really want to take that opportunity to tell the rest. The act of abortion shouldn't be a way to control birth. Some cases are exceptional but generally I never and won't agree this act especially youngsters that have sex without considering the consequences.
One of my friends told me in order to play the video, I must actually save the video file inside the pendrive. How noob can I get? I didn't know that. Yes, I am real dumb. I wanted to rush home badly but knowing that I would rush late for class, it stopped me. Clueless, alone hanging in the reading room, thinking about thinking.
As time passed, I really couldn't stop blaming myself for not saving the file and tears started to drop. I wanted it to be shown sooooooo badly. Without the video, it defeats the main purpose why I choose this topic. What't the point then??
Another friend of mine came in and saw me sitting in the corner, wondering why am I so down and not doing my work. I told him everything and he tried comforting me that marks not given so no big deal. I know marks not given in the very beginning but still.... He doesn't understand why am I so bullheaded. I got tried explaining to him.
Minutes before, my other 2 friends came in and took my pendrive, hoping for a miracle. They were of course trying to help me, giving me solutions but I was despairing. Anyway thanks guys for willing to listen to me crap and fight for stupid things.
And you know what? Things were so chaotic that time and my friends deleted my powerpoint! I let out a scream. My heart scattered but not as much as when I know I couldn't show the video. I was smiling bitterly and in deep shock.
My friend felt so guilty but I kept telling her that is alright. The powerpoint doesn't really matter anymore. Pointless without the video.
But luckily we managed to retrieve my powerpoint and went in lecture class to present. Another joke of the day, we were the first group. Lecturer was telling us that can't show any powerpoint. I was like, '' What the heck?!'' Too many shock a day, my heart can't take it. Then, she told me alright, we can keep on with the powerpoint, felt relieved. Lecturer, please don't play this kind of joke to me anymore. It is not funny.
On my way back home, I was still feeling down and started tearing in my car. Am I overreacting and bit too emotional ?? I think I am...
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