Work Distraction

Currently occupied.

mind has less time to wonder now.

work and new friends keep me occupied

:) that's a good thing for me.

Photograph & Hello

Hello...

I lost a gem

A lifetime regret.

Better not

wanna express wanna say but can't

dnt know who can I say to. dnt know how should I say it.

better not.

am I doing it right, SL?

I don't know what to do

are they waiting for me to get everyone together?

they want to meet up.

but I don't know what to do.

I want but I cant.

she voiced out. he voiced out.

they voiced out.

I saw it.. I felt it but I cant and dont know how to react towards it.

sorry guys.

im only getting the girls together.

Music Run 2015, Sepang Circuit

Honestly speaking I wasn't anticipate much or excited of this event because it wasn't a run. It is more like a Music Walk. Since Yvonne cant make it and passed on her bib to me, I thought joining this wouldn't hurt me.

We started off Kajang and then head to Dengkil for lunch.

I expected wayyyy more for the dong po rou in Dengkil Seafood Restaurant. 

Anyhow other dishes were quite nice.

Then, we went to Mitsui ! I gotta say thanks for the girls that willing to go according to my plan. And I managed to buy a pair of Nike shoes :D Happyyy

After shopppingg, time to head to Sepang International Circuit.

and there goes our pic time!

Somehow elaine, ming hui and I actually ran slow pace in the beginning and it got me really touched and excited. It gave me the feeling of 'marathon' since i didnt manage to run for SCR. Plus, there are actually people in front of me running. This run is soooooooooooooo muchhhh better than Colour Run!! Although we didnt run far, but I was really happy and grateful to have this short run with the two girls. :D

Meeting Pei Wen @ Pop Station

It was really fun to try this

and we are done!

Really thanks to Yvonne and Elaine for allowing me to be part of this! I clearly enjoyed my day. :DDDDD

Canopy Walk with Puchong Gang

Midnight Express Delivery

A exciting fun experience with Jessy!

Somehow we end up in the same group which we aren't suppose to be.

The excited kids after obtaining the iphone 6s plus ! ;D

pose before giving it to the real owner hahaa

before we head to our customer's house

and there you go, Ms Jocelyn who was excited to see our presence at her doorstep!

Thanks Maxis for the exprience!; )

SCR

they dont understand why I insisted wanting to go in the haze...

and why am I so freaking excited for tmr.

I dnt want to explain to them personally.

SCRKL 2015 is a significant event of my life which transformed me in a way I did not expect. It started with him then registered for SCR suddenly then PC forcing herself to jog then forcing herself to be discipline then forcing herself to stay focus on achieving what she wants.

Im really really sad right now.

my first serious marathon that I really looking forward for is now cancelled. 

I need to Calm Down

Met so many that can speak so well these days.

and I noticed that when I get the chance to speak, I will rush my words or I will get stuck :(

I need to improve on this.

The real reason of joining marathon

dont know whether  you know, ambiga wasnt the reason that I joined marathon.

It was you.

I hid it from you.

and thanks to you, I made the choice of joining and forced to train for it.

Now, Im getting into marathons because of my own achievement and pleasant.

I hope Im not disturbing you.

I am just bad

I have so many bad thoughts in me.

reminds me of SL's '' is the thoughts and your intention.''

I clearly know I have bad thoughts now.

I still unable to control them properly.

Horrible feeling.

Have you forgive me?

I cant forgive myself

T T

Haps these days

Being occupied at the right time. Less time for my brain to wonder around.

Time passes faster when I am busy.

My New Batchmates

another new chapter of my life begins with them :))

our first photo together on Day 1

@Plaza Sentral after a group discussion

@ KLCC Maxis Centre with Priscilla

Our first private lunch alone LOL

The-running-around-Menara-Day

The uni feel is back

with Different people now but joining the programme kinda bring me back to uni life!

The life that I missed.

Right Choice!

Sept has been great for me!

With the end of AJ2015 and the start of my 'work'

I really think I did made the right choice to join the programme.

Meeting lotsa great and awesome people each day.

I kinda found a hiking/marathon/healthy buddy, Ms Leyla!

Let the healthy lifestyle continues ;D

我现在 lol 不出来

做人很辛苦。

我懒得写刚才在家里发生的drama. 明明没有事，可是他们两个老的那么担心。

我的错？

我很累

解释不解释我都累。

和你们讲， 你们又不明白。

我不想浪费口水对牛弹琴。

可能我真的该解释好点。

请你们信任你们的女儿好吗？

我自己已经很被自己的无能而被挫折。你们可不可以不要让我觉得我更更更无能。

现在，我冷静一点点了。我知道你们爱我和担心我。

请你们相信我，好不好。

T T

强逼不来

我好想比较明白。。有些事人家没有jio我，我就不要自己在房emo.

有一些聚会，自己明知人家不把你放在心里，被jio了还是飞去不可。可每当我出席这一类型的聚会，我都会感到寂寞。明明就不是和他们很friend，我还是要stick过去，把自己搞得辛苦和可怜。

以前，我非常纠结为何他们不约我。现在，我宁愿不被他们约出来。

不是就不是啊。

我希望我此刻心情不是在骗自己。

此刻，我的心情没有被打扰到 :)

我开心吗?

没人的时候，我会觉得我最近笑得很累。

但我在面对自己时，我知道我不这么开心。

我的问题，我自己知道。他也知道。

可是，他们不知道。

Migrant Problems

Lotsa news on immigrants due to war fare in Syria etc that causes many immigrants to flock into Austria and other European countries.

Many died for finding their ways to cross the borders.. pass the sea... pass the fence..pass the custom...pass the immigration

Europeans do not want their countries to be flooded with immigrants. The number of immigrants are uncountable. Those countries cannot continue to take in people endlessly.

Are the Europeans wrong?

Are the immigrants wrong for having war fare in their home?

Leaders in related countries are having a tough time addressing this issue. It is inhumane to STOP innocent immigrants to enter; It is unpleasant situation where angry citizens will voice and want this to be stopped.

Seriously a tough question.

This should be a collaborative effort among EU. They should tackle this problem by reducing war fare in affected areas and get other countries to take in migrants. If other countries dont wanna take in migrants, they must at least contribute financially.

Why would other countries bother helping? This is like non of their business. They will just let the countries nearby to deal with this issue and shake their legs.

How to get them involved?

Journalists and media should continue to raise awareness on this issue.

Easy to say, hard to do.

More lives will be taken in this fight.

Stop explaining

I will only explain to people that want to listen to me.

Not Knowing Our Strengths and Weaknesses

it was an interesting brain-stimulating session with linda.

I really like how she pointed out questions and made me think further.

I thought she can easily point out questions and the fact that she only think of those questions while discussing the role play with me. I am still very impressed with your questions! My brain doesnt really ask a good why.

after the role play discussion, we started discussing on strengths and weaknesses.

I may be bit harsh and straight forward. Many of your concerns and weaknesses are also mine. I know that no matter how hard I were to explain to you on that, you wouldnt believe me. So, I just kept quiet and try to talk less about myself since I am not the focus. 

You being lost of not knowing your own strengths and weaknesses brings back alotttttttttttttttt of memories and mixed feelings to me.

I looked stunned and amazed in the cafe at how u not know yourself but I myself didnt know about myself too. Someone knows me more than I do.

We are great failures. 

I was helping you to list your strengths and weaknesses? Needing someone to tell us what are we and what we need to do makes me realized that how handicap can a normal person be.

Shame within myself. I may sound very pro just now but while I was correcting you, I was also indirectly slapping my own face.

I gotta thank you too, Linda.

Thanks for reminding me on my weaknesses and thanks for making my brain think.

7.34!

I made it!

I woke up early and hit the target that I set for myself.

Slow but I am feeling it already.

I am going finish within 75 mins for SCR!

如果上帝給你三樣東西，你要什麼？

I am going to answer this HONESTLY

based on what LPC wants.

choices are as below: [obtained this from here]

1. 一張600萬的支票。　　

2. 一輛200萬的汽車 。　
3.  一個100級的QQ號。　　　
4.  一家七星級酒店。　　　  　
5.  一個知心愛人。　　　
6.  一張偶像的簽名照。　　　
7.  一個永遠不吵架的家。　　　　
8.  一隻可愛聽話的寵物。　　　
9.  一個多活10年的資格。
10  一個父母長命百歲的願望

Too Lazy to Explain

The next time when a lot of them are asking me why,
I will just answer ' I am too poor to buy rice to eat. ''



I didnt take pill.

I am healthy.

I am not anorexic.

The importance of using brain

I may not be as critical and analytical as you... but you made me realized how important is thinking.

I was childish for wanting a job that does not require thinking back in my high school.

''toilet lady also I dont mind.''

Now, thinking may not be thatttt enjoyable but it gives another kind of satisfaction when I can figure out a thing on my own. I can answer something without the help of others.

I am too lazy to think and often take shortcuts by asking people.

There are many times that we can always do it by ourselves.

We should always put the-ask-people-for-help  as the last resort.

I was overly dependent and ignorant to understand more.

Time for a real change.

You ran with me

I dreamed that we ran a marathon together. :)

I was the fastest in the girl category.

This marathon involved running on top of cars, running down and up the stairs etc.

End up we need to find some sort of treasure in a japanese restaurant.

You helped me in the end when I couldnt find the treasure.

Such a great dream.

:)))

Birdy-Wings

Braces and Specs

My mother asked me to take off my specs and asked me smile in a way that my braces cant be seen during my graduation photo shoot.

pc w/o her specs? pc w/o her braces? I dont wanna look blur and foolish. How weird is that when the family photo is out, I cant even recognise who was the one wearing the graduation gown.

first of all, why wanna hide my braces? I can smile with teeth thanks to my braces! Im proud to wear it. I never seen myself smile so brightly and confidently last time.

Im gonna take off my braces soon. Is been quite a journey. Time just passes.. month by month... and towards the end with my braces.

Not like I wanna pay another few thousands to have another braces with me. It is something that has been with me for some time. jiu bu she de. 

Miss.. so what if I miss it.. I cant be wearing it for life. I gotta move on life w/o braces soon.

I only start missing when I know I dont have much time left with it?

my fan jian is beyond description. 

I'm not all great

I know what am I talking right now and Im not purposely acting humble here and Im not trying to get people to praise me.

I have been awakened.

although it was kinda late, yet at least I realized the facts before I go in even deeper into my own world.

Thanks alot.

your words are with me.

and I will remember what you said to me.

Thanks for correcting me genuinely.

I regretted for what I did yet I cant wind back the time.

How can I be so blinded by myself?

I no longer want to be a disable. 

Hit 5.55km Today!

Something to cheer me up today after numerous disturbing dreams.

I did it!

despite of the hot sun, I managed to jog the distance I set for myself today!

Less than one and an half months more to go.

Feels like time is running out.

Especially Im starting work on Sept 7.

I want to finish my 10km within 75mins!!

The epic fail interview

I went there so half-heartedly.

I didnt know how to answer his questions.

Before entering, I was thinking whthr to involve my brother in the interview but after filling in employee's form, I was kinda forced to reveal.

The interview was very screwed up.

Clearly they can see I was not prepared and not interested.

Anyhow I remained cool and calm towards the end and asked them whthr they have any advice for me and gan said, '' groom and dress well. tie your hair and make yourself look ready.''

entering bank isnt as easy as i thought. they were very particular and strict...

checking the certs one by one... other female candidates were all wearing blazer. I definitely looked freaking casual especially after comparing with them.

I was damn embarrassed by myself. I was so worried that my bad performance will affect ah leong.

I messaged ah leong and said sorry. he asked me not to worry... but I just want to say I really did really bad and although I no need to bother so much about this interview but .... I couldnt be not down by my performance.

A memorable interview experience.

Write it off as failure, but read it as experience

-Ho Dong-

Accordingly

when one said you should never do a particular thing, it does not mean that you forever cannot do that no matter what circumstances. it means that you need to think and see is it appropriate and advisable to do at that time being. 

Nothing is fixed. It is fixed cause we, humans fix it and want it to remain as it is. 

think accordingly

adjust accordingly

react accordingly

That's one of the valuable things he taught me.

I am one of the Two!

I Cant freaking believe that I was chosen!

Although she was saying that we Asians tend to be really humble.

It was all your nice words that I felt I dont deserve so much of your praises.

Not till that extent. Seriously.

Im more than overwhelmed and I was quite driven to be the one you expect me to be.

I know I have many lackings in many sense.

and having to be chosen for this programme especially meeting other stronger candidates, I really did not see this coming

What a day! :)))))))))))

I am a lucky girl.

No One

I want but I can't be asking.

Seeing them having does make me look sad.

I was even thinking of borrowing theirs to take photo.

Anyway, stay calm stay cool pc.

u are pc.

He was Right

Speculations are scary.

especially people who make assumptions based on things that they see from surface.

We cannot don't care about people.

We cannot be completely bothered too.

Another tough chapter of life.

She Remembered me!

I suddenly made an impulse decision to head to UTAR's Career Fair that day.

It was sad that things have changed since I left.

Sad that I cannot recognise the people around me.

Things clearly changed despite walking around the old building. The old building and some of the shops in Sg long remains the same but the companions and those old times cannot be rewind back.

I planned alot what to eat whenever I get to go back to Sg Long. 

But, I suddenly thought I should visit back the pan mee aunty after for so freaking long.

I sat and waited for her to take my order. She came to me and paused for several seconds and let out a bright smile. She recognised me! It feels damn good to have someone that know you. 

A photo for the memory

This shop and this bowl of pan mee have became not an everyday thing. 

First Hamster Ball Try Out

Luckily I tried this out in the end. What a deadly hot day @ Eco Majestic. 

I kept wondering why I went after coming back from there.

Older or Younger?

It just feels good to spend time with people whom you know for so long

Takut

My heart pounding as if I just committed a crime.

So scary > <

Less Paranoid with Weight and Food

Now Im wondering why did I struggle so badly and so hyper paranoid with my weight last time?

I am really happy with how I eat now..

Able to eat more for certain meals and then work out to maintain back.

Striking a balance is whats important :)

" not you cant eat, you need to know whens the right time to eat. especially for your case.''

Too Much of Something

Never good to have too much of something unless you are someone who really knows how to appreciate your surroundings.

I am someone who doesn't appreciate when I own certain things or when the things that are always there for me. It felt like they will always be there. Why bother.

This is something I need to work on.

To cherish. To appreciate.

To understand and be grateful with what I have.

Turned out to a happy day!

I was kinda down and moody before/ after the interview just now.

It was not something that I was looking forward for it.

They asked many questions.

I learnt something.

I dont think Im their best fit.

My heart doesnt want to do it.

Things werent so good until I received the email! :DDDDD

They finally replied! haahahahhahaa

Another chance for me.

happy happy happyyyy

keke

Look at yourself

None of us want to tell you things because of how you will react towards stuffs.

You cannot really blame us for not wanting to tell you stuffs.

We don't want to get more headache.

Last time, I used to share stuffs with you. Then you tell the world or either interrupt in a very narrow-minded way. How am I suppose to tell you?

We rather keep things towards ourselves or among ourselves to save more troubles.

I feel sad for you.

Our problems?

Your problems?

:/ 

I heard you

You reminded me again in dream.

幸福，其實一直都在身邊

最幸福的事或許只是下雨了，你發現包包裡剛好有放把傘，肚子餓了回到家桌上擺著滿滿的菜，身上沒錢的時候意外在口袋裡發現了上次沒拿出來的錢，最後還有一件事就是，你發現你喜歡的那個人也喜歡著你。 

幸福，其實一直都在身邊，不用急著找，或許只是一個瞬間，你就會發現它。

got this from http://blog.cw.com.tw/blog/profile/223/article/1748#sthash.LbbUoycI.dpuf

this put a smile on my face :) 

再次唤醒我原来幸福可以那么简单。

Jiak Ka Che

I eat rice... meat, okay ?

I didnt starve and I am not starving myself to death.

Thanks for your concern.

Getting lazier and sienz to reply this kind of questions or statements.

I tell you I got makan, u guys dont believe.

I tell you I exercise, u guys dont believe.

apa you guys want from me?

it is about time to stop being amused with my weight loss.

So long already man...

Zz

The Night

It was a peaceful and quiet night with the moon.

人是犯贱的

this is something I have on my mind since long ago and rarely I agree on a certain thing this long.

I change my opinions over certain aspects or people over time.

I am done with studying now.

I remembered people asking me whether I will continue master after my degree (at that time I was still in university). I answered a loud and clear NO right away. Being a student for such long (since kindergarten), I was tired of the idea of continuing to be a student at that time. Anyhow I did started missing my uni life in my Year 2, I kept telling my friends I miss uni... actually I miss the people around me. I was very sad that time. Depressed thinking that I will not be spending time with them. Depressed that things wont be the same anymore after I graduated. Worried that I will be aimless after I graduated.

My answer changed now. 

I miss studying. maybe not just studying but everything things used to be during my student time.

Somehow I think even I study master, it will not be the same anymore :'(

This is part of growing eh? 

People just don't appreciate the things they had or they cant see the things ahead. Not many people can do this well.

I think I am hyper hyper fan jian. 

Songs

I am afraid to hear certain songs especially when I am sensitive.

I feel like I can understand the lyrics now.

It feels empty for not listening anything these days.

but listening to songs make me think of you.

I don't really have my own playlist.

I usually hear the songs that you hear.

and thankfully my sister has her own songlist and it is kinda nice!

recently I really like to hear 'mo' sang by jay chou in the voice...

after listening to him singing that song, I always have an indescribable feeling.

My new enjoyment while Jogging

Admiring the sky in the evening during my jogs always clear my mind.

 

Sometimes the view is so pretty that I really want to capture down the moment so badly... 

but I am jogging especially I have already started jogging.

Next time when I am having my rest day, then I will just walk around the neighborhood with my phone to capture the moments.

now my blog and twitter have became back the places I share about my life.

at least I still these few platforms to express myself in the ways I like:)

Not Opening Up

I know I am forcing myself when I purposely act friendly and say hi to people.

..when I smiled alot

..when I talk alot

..when I being all sociable

if I have the choice to be quiet, I will just stay a side.

I only enjoy with the people that I am comfortable with.

and that's when I am myself.

Praises

I don't deserve them.

Unless I truly think I earn it.

Last time, praises were always good. Now, I start to wonder whether I deserve those praises,

You are

“You are the books you read, the films you watch, the music you listen to, the people you meet, the dreams you have, the conversations you engage in. You are what you take from these. You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner. You are a collective of every experience you have had in your life. You are every single second of every single day. So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence. Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind until there is nothing left to do but explode. There are no wrong answers. Inspiration is everything. Sit back, relax, and take it all in. Now, go out and create something.”

-Jac Vanek-

“When things are investigated, then true knowledge is achieved; when true knowledge is achieved, then the will becomes sincere; when the will is sincere, then the heart is set right ; when the heart is set right, then the personal life is cultivated; when the personal life is cultivated, then the family life is regulated; when the family life is regulated, then the national life is orderly; and when the national life is orderly, then there is peace in this world.” 

Beautiful Megah

Jogging around Megah today after the rain ... i suddenly have the thought that the community/ people staying in megah are nice. Very nice for a city community. I am somehow touched. 

the air was nice... the sky was nice....and megah seems to be a nice place to be in... except those dogs .....and even the not-fully green field looked nice today too.

megah ftw!

My Changes

I stopped searching for food crazily these days.

I changed again.

Is changing part of my personality ?

I have been changing quite drastically until I cannot recognise myself.

I fear one day I will get tired of traveling also.

Some changes are good.

Some are scary.

Some are unknown.

Some are for good reasons and that't fine.

Am I the only one that is this unstable?

Stronger

Move Forward

not Backwards

People get Stronger over time

not weaker

Greatest Achievement

Losing weight!

It has been my greatest achievement...

one of the most struggling moments of my life...

the biggest change of my life...

with the constant shower of his love..

I did it T__T

TQ.

Dont say if you dont know

His PR not good? -he can socialize perfectly well and he doesnt need to prove to you

He doesnt know how to "become human"? - tell me what u guys know about him for u to say that and disrespect him.

All because you guys havent seen him doesnt make him a bad guy.

Mind your judgement and your hurtful words.

It is kinda late now but I cannot sleep...

Sick & No appetite

Not feeling very well these days...

Fever, severe migraine, cold, stomachache etc

I have been losing weight

no appetite to eat

: /

Strengths and Weaknesses

W: Alot

S: er? Har?

More discovery to be made. :)

He is someone that cares :)

Tough Period

People around me are getting jobs.

Family and relatives are stressing me to get a job.

I want to rest and go on vacations.

I cant rest peacefully.

I cant go vacations as I like and expected.

when has my mum become so not supportive?

Im already facing my own problems...

Nowadays, I really feel like flying off and leave home to find a job.

I used to cant let go of them.

used to...

I am a very lucky person

To have you.

Busan Day 2: BIFF- Gukje Market- Yongdusan- Jalgachi

BIFF, Gukje Market and Changseondong Meokja Golmok are all near to each other.

We started our day 2 by heading to Changseondong Meokja Golmok for breakfast. We passed by BIFF for ice cream and then the eatery alley, last with Gukje Market.

kelam kabut in the subway ticket vending machine to buy the one-way-ticket. One day pass is not worth it since we didn't go so many stations. 

We reached BIFF around 10am yet many stalls arent open?? I asked the ice cream man yet I dont think he quite get me? He told me that the stalls open at 7am? loll

The famous Ssiak Hotteok Stall in BIFF? Hopefully we didnt get the wrong stall.

I was expecting wayyyy more for this :(

The 3,000 won capsule ice cream that's nice but pricey!

After we purchased our ice cream, then we found the eatery alley for our breakfast. Basically, you can see a group of ahjummas selling the same thing. 

The lucky stall that we chose. The food there is kinda cheap.

I kept slurping the noodles and drinking the soup. however, since I tried this type of noodles several times during my busan trip. This isn't the best one yet it still taste quite alright especially when your stomach is empty

Rice wrapped with seaweed served with some kimchi. Theres this chewy kimchi and i think is cuttlefish. (Y)! specialll

Me and Ai wee  with our food 

Then, we went walk around the market to shop and also ended up with more random food that we saw.

Korean Pancake

Us snacking again

A close up of the pancake. 

More random snack along the way haha

We were quite full when we reached this stall but I really wanted to try tteokbokki and of course we ordered one to share.

the rice cake was bigger and fatter than the ones I ate in Malaysia. 

and yes, we stopped at a quite crowded noodle shop to try their food. Quite (Y)

I guess this kimbap tasted quite good but we were dead full. >_<

We dropped the Lotte Mart and Department Store nearby and bought lotsaaaaaa snacks back. The snacks were cheaper than usual. 

ps: It is the only and nearest Lotte Mart near our hotel and i regretted not buying more Lotte brand snacks that time:(

I thought we had enough of eating yet seems like it was time to find a cafe for aiwee's bingsu and also let the adults to rest.

so we ordered this red bean bingsu and eat again

Then after a good rest at the cafe, we random walk and end up near the entrance of Busan Tower, Yongdusan. We weren't planning to go but since we reached. of course, we should pay a visit! The weather was really nice so walking wasnt too much of a problem.

Next stop, Jalgachi Fish market for dinner! It was windyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and cold >_<

The fish market is kinda big and this is jut a portion of it

Hi octopus:)

We then chose to eat in this grilled eel restaurant flooded with locals.

The complementary soup with really smalllll 'lala' that tasted like sea water. haha

Our grilled eel with red pepper sauce! I was glad we went for this with the help of this Korean lady that helped us to order. One of the waitress there didnt let us order a small portion -__- Put that aside, this eel tasted nothing like unagi. It had the texture of a really chewy Squid!

We added on rice towards the end :D Not bad not bad:3 

ps: Koreans really eat quite alot. lolll 

Us travelling back to Seomyeon Station after the dinner :)

After the adults head back to rest, me, ai wee and foong continued to walk without the adults! :DD 

We ordered this bingsu in Angel in us coffee cafe :3 it was really good. the frozen cheesecake was good!  <3

Satisfying ending with a great bingsu to mark the end of our Day 2.