The Night

It was a peaceful and quiet night with the moon.

人是犯贱的

this is something I have on my mind since long ago and rarely I agree on a certain thing this long.

I change my opinions over certain aspects or people over time.

I am done with studying now.

I remembered people asking me whether I will continue master after my degree (at that time I was still in university). I answered a loud and clear NO right away. Being a student for such long (since kindergarten), I was tired of the idea of continuing to be a student at that time. Anyhow I did started missing my uni life in my Year 2, I kept telling my friends I miss uni... actually I miss the people around me. I was very sad that time. Depressed thinking that I will not be spending time with them. Depressed that things wont be the same anymore after I graduated. Worried that I will be aimless after I graduated.

My answer changed now. 

I miss studying. maybe not just studying but everything things used to be during my student time.

Somehow I think even I study master, it will not be the same anymore :'(

This is part of growing eh? 

People just don't appreciate the things they had or they cant see the things ahead. Not many people can do this well.

I think I am hyper hyper fan jian. 

Songs

I am afraid to hear certain songs especially when I am sensitive.

I feel like I can understand the lyrics now.

It feels empty for not listening anything these days.

but listening to songs make me think of you.

I don't really have my own playlist.

I usually hear the songs that you hear.

and thankfully my sister has her own songlist and it is kinda nice!

recently I really like to hear 'mo' sang by jay chou in the voice...

after listening to him singing that song, I always have an indescribable feeling.

My new enjoyment while Jogging

Admiring the sky in the evening during my jogs always clear my mind.

 

Sometimes the view is so pretty that I really want to capture down the moment so badly... 

but I am jogging especially I have already started jogging.

Next time when I am having my rest day, then I will just walk around the neighborhood with my phone to capture the moments.

now my blog and twitter have became back the places I share about my life.

at least I still these few platforms to express myself in the ways I like:)

Not Opening Up

I know I am forcing myself when I purposely act friendly and say hi to people.

..when I smiled alot

..when I talk alot

..when I being all sociable

if I have the choice to be quiet, I will just stay a side.

I only enjoy with the people that I am comfortable with.

and that's when I am myself.

Praises

I don't deserve them.

Unless I truly think I earn it.

Last time, praises were always good. Now, I start to wonder whether I deserve those praises,

You are

“You are the books you read, the films you watch, the music you listen to, the people you meet, the dreams you have, the conversations you engage in. You are what you take from these. You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner. You are a collective of every experience you have had in your life. You are every single second of every single day. So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence. Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind until there is nothing left to do but explode. There are no wrong answers. Inspiration is everything. Sit back, relax, and take it all in. Now, go out and create something.”

-Jac Vanek-

“When things are investigated, then true knowledge is achieved; when true knowledge is achieved, then the will becomes sincere; when the will is sincere, then the heart is set right ; when the heart is set right, then the personal life is cultivated; when the personal life is cultivated, then the family life is regulated; when the family life is regulated, then the national life is orderly; and when the national life is orderly, then there is peace in this world.” 

Beautiful Megah

Jogging around Megah today after the rain ... i suddenly have the thought that the community/ people staying in megah are nice. Very nice for a city community. I am somehow touched. 

the air was nice... the sky was nice....and megah seems to be a nice place to be in... except those dogs .....and even the not-fully green field looked nice today too.

megah ftw!

My Changes

I stopped searching for food crazily these days.

I changed again.

Is changing part of my personality ?

I have been changing quite drastically until I cannot recognise myself.

I fear one day I will get tired of traveling also.

Some changes are good.

Some are scary.

Some are unknown.

Some are for good reasons and that't fine.

Am I the only one that is this unstable?

Stronger

Move Forward

not Backwards

People get Stronger over time

not weaker

Greatest Achievement

Losing weight!

It has been my greatest achievement...

one of the most struggling moments of my life...

the biggest change of my life...

with the constant shower of his love..

I did it T__T

TQ.

Dont say if you dont know

His PR not good? -he can socialize perfectly well and he doesnt need to prove to you

He doesnt know how to "become human"? - tell me what u guys know about him for u to say that and disrespect him.

All because you guys havent seen him doesnt make him a bad guy.

Mind your judgement and your hurtful words.

It is kinda late now but I cannot sleep...

Sick & No appetite

Not feeling very well these days...

Fever, severe migraine, cold, stomachache etc

I have been losing weight

no appetite to eat

: /

Strengths and Weaknesses

W: Alot

S: er? Har?

More discovery to be made. :)

He is someone that cares :)

Tough Period

People around me are getting jobs.

Family and relatives are stressing me to get a job.

I want to rest and go on vacations.

I cant rest peacefully.

I cant go vacations as I like and expected.

when has my mum become so not supportive?

Im already facing my own problems...

Nowadays, I really feel like flying off and leave home to find a job.

I used to cant let go of them.

used to...

I am a very lucky person

To have you.