Attitudes that matter

If you ever make me frustrated, congrats to you.

One small minor event isn't good enough to make me hyper furious.

You just have to be more considerate you know, things don't just always evolve around you. There are more people out there that are affected by your actions. I think I was super angry that day cause the way you talked made me even angrier. First, if you find yourself at wrong, please bother explaining in a proper manner and think. This isn't the first time. If you want to misunderstand me as a calculative person, then go ahead. I just don't get how some people can be so irresponsible and inconsiderate.

Problem is the way you talk. That's it...

Luckily the others tried to stop me from scolding you, I really wanted to badly. The next time this kind of stuff occurs again, you better prepared to see my face turns black. I dont bother whether you are afraid of me or whatever crap, maybe you dont even know you are wrong at the first place. Im not gonna be like the rest, pamper you and let you go next time. You better be thankful that someone is willing to waste their energy to correct youuu.

You gotta know what you gotta know man.

How to be like them?

Met many peeps these days. From Jian Nee's Crazy friends, CL's hilarious high school mates to random dudes in the field during mooncake festival.

Szok Wye makes me feel as if I know her for years although we only met for the first day. Benjamin, thanks to his random questions here and there, we were able to talk in Sabrina's open house and I wasn't quite in mood to talk to him when I was in the airport. Partially I was shy and sad. I want to be like them too.Admire how they are able to start conversation so well and naturally. I still have this shy mode onz especially random people along the street. 

During my garden's mooncake festival, my dad, sister and I went to the field since we had a potluck party there. Most of us came out gathered and ate. A random dude slept in front of us and seemed like wanting to find opportunity to talk to us. I was like ' Oh myy' *sweating awkward mode* He was from UTAR too. Able to approach my dad and I, randomly asking us bout where we stay and what we do and all... I always don't feel like talking to anyone when I don't think I look alright. Confidence level dropped right to the ground. Then, there came another guy who used to study in DJ, a year elder than me who is doing his economics degree in Monash. While talking to him, the constant OS on my head " How the heck can he speak so fluently and naturally as if he knows me for quite so long'. After so many years of struggles, not much great changes.

Send Offs

September 17, 2013

Decided to head to airport because I know Jian Nee always puts family, friends and her dogs at the top list more than anything else. The previous time when Sabrina went back to US again, she was too reluctant to head home first and just wanna spend more time together. 

She's one friend of mine that we spent lotsa time together chatting back in high school. Someone who helps to solve friends' problem, one that will do whatever it takes to make her friends feel right and a crazy noisy soul that greet almost every possible human being that passes by her. No matter what new friends she has and all, she never forgets the people that were once part of her life. That's Ong Jian Nee. Glad to know that she got over the fact that she's flying to UK. 

On that day, her dad drove his family and I to the airport. Met her cheerful and sporty friends along the way, as crazy as her. Everyone was chatting away about random stuffs but I know that everyone was really sad, sad that the noisiest is longer with us.

"Fast, Fast  Go. We aren't going to miss you." 

" Peace now."

Her BAC , sunway friends and I were casually talking since she cant entertain all of us at once. The best part was she was like " All of them are not sending me off also. They are like flirting with each other." hahahahahhaaha Totally Jian Nee. I know you were joking. 

When it was about time for her to board, one the way to the gate, Kristal and Szok Wyhe were sobbing. Yee Lin was at the side and didn't talk much. I.. I.. didnt wanna look at them so I walked way in front. We had our photograph session in one of the shops. I felt the love from her friends, the love-hate relationship, the bond they had.

Szok Wyhe (JN's Horny crazy Twin) : Omg, I only know her for 2 years and I miss her that badly. You guys gonna miss her terribly.. *randomly asking us know her for how long* 

SW resembles JN a lot. I do not know her but she is one sweet soul. Wasnt close to anyone there beside JN and she was constantly ensuring I was somewhere near when I was trying to stay a distance.

The time has come. Most of the girls started tearing. Popo and her mother teared too. Jian Nee started walking very fast towards the gate cause she cant take it anymore. We stopped her and asked for a hug. Knowing her for 7 years, we didnt hug before and not like I hug friends often. I just wanted to give her a big hug that time.

Not quite worried for her cause she knows what she's doing. Just gonna miss you, noisy girl. Dont know whether can drop by UK, till the day we meet again. It wont take long. 

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September 18, 2013

I was having a gloomy Tuesday Night after sending her off. I just hate how a bunch of her joker friends started to tear making me scared to send Chen Ling off cause I think CL's gonna be more dramatic than Jn's since Crystal and CL going be far apart.

Both of them have amazing bond. Although I know both of them only about 2 years, I always admire the friendship they have when I dont quite know them in Foundation. I know both of them had been crying their butt off when CL's parents decided to send her off to UK. I feel bad each time knowing them both of them feel horrible and randomly cry over the nights. Need a how-to-comfort-sad-soul course badly.

Lessons learnt:
1. Never get overly attached to anyone. The pain when one's heading someone far and cannot meet up that often anymore. 

2. Dont trust Sygic.

3. Nokia's Navigation (Y)

4. Pump full tank petrol. 

Anyway that day was reallyyyy dramatic!! Met up with Lok, Jared and Kar soon ( with his sport attire since crystal didnt allow him to be late so he didnt manage to take bath) hahahahhahahaaha Jared was asking whether the petrol would be enough and Lok was like aiyaa, enough for you to go and head back from KLIA. We started adventure using Kar Soon's Sygic (that made him met in an accident during their Penang Trip)  because Jared didnt manage to follow Yaoyao's car. On the way, we laughed and crapped. They did all the talking since I dont know them, I was just busy laughing. Three of them really joker. hahahahaha. Damn funnyyyyyyy 

Using KS's Sygic, we reached Dengkil and then it led us somewhere. Guess what? We drove to Nilai heading to JB's direction like wtheck?! LOL Best thing of all, after missing a junction or something, petrol showed low signal. All of us panic! In front of our eyes, we can only see endless highwayy. Ended up, we managed to find a petrol station thats 15-20 km away. That time, it was like an hour before CL was going to go on board. When we were kelam kabut finding for petrol station, CL messaged crystal! Lok was holding crystal's phone and saw it was a 'touching message'. He didnt dare to read it out. He passed the phone to Crystal. 

The message : '' Take Care F_ _ ker! '' and crystal started sobbing badly. Thought she couldnt make it for the airport and CL will blame her for that. CL thought crystal was that meannn and didnt even bother coming to airport. Of course not, CL. Lol

Kar soon was feeling horrible since his sygic caused all the drama, started busy taking tissues for her. A moment of silence till we reached the airport. It was seriously like the scene in those dramas. Rushing to see 'love one' and things always happen before that. Anyway we managed to reach there on time!!

CL was clearly shocked and was like '' ni men hen e xin de loooo'' hahahahaahaha pointing at us one by one for our sudden appearance. hahaha 

Crystal's tear memang non stop. LOl. CL was tryingg real hard to hold it. Both of them went like very awkward didnt wanna hug or see each other much which was really sad. 

Highlight of the day was when CL walked in to the boarding place, she looked back and saw us waving to us.. she didnt reply and continued walking and then looked back another time and continued walking. The expression on her face :'(((

Thanks to Lok, Kar Soon and Jared, crystal couldnt cry her way back cause three of them were busy making fun of the F_ _ker thingy. "I didnt know F _ _ ker can be so touching! I did not a friendship can be described with that'' " please allow me to call you that next time!" LOLOL Hahahahhahahaha hilarious to the max

Anyhow CL, crystal's gonna go visit you and we will wait for your return! You guys don't have to worry that your friendship will change, nothing can beat the times you two been through. 

If someone wants to be in your life, he or she will find a way to.

T T

Now that I wrote about it, I'm sad...

Immature You

This started from yesterday's buffet dinner. Didnt go because I was in Sabrina's house.
My dad and mother were charged at the senior citizen rate for the buffet. My brother started laughing. When he came home, told my sis that if I go, I would get the senior citizen rate too. Oh hello, I know I looked old but not till senior citizen. - -

Truthfully I really couldn't by your words and actions at times. I used to be freakingggggggggggg hurt and sad over what you said about me. Now that I learnt not to care anymore...

I used to not being the center of attraction. Yes, I know Im not adorable, not pretty and grumpy. Sometimes I do feel quite sad that no one really bother much when I was young back then, now that I realised Im unique in my own way and I dont have to please anyone. You can say whatever you want.

So you think is funny saying that I look old?
Yeah I know I dont dress up and I dont care about my appearance much.
I dont look like the age Im suppose to.

Even relatives, outsiders or friends will think that Im way more mature than the age Im suppose to be. Im like okayy, whichever I dont care:3

yesyes, Aunty Farah jokingly said that ' your sister looked like your mother . ' Back then, I was still in high school??

Aunty Farah, I dont know you well and you dont know me well.. I dont think you know how long he used that to tease me saying that Im old. I was really disturbed back then. As for my beloved brother, I know is funny for ya, not for me. You are really a pain for me when I was in high school. Since you were so popular in school back then, I was this ugly unknown little girl that has no achievement, I became quite quiet and dont socialize that well. I really hate it to have you around in school. Your friends will stare at me and whispering commenting about me. I really really really hated it.

I wasnt confident at myself that I dont voice out last time, I dont talk much last time. And yes, you are part of the reasons.

I dont like the way you talk and how you think you are so great about yourself. I dont know how ah foong can stand you. But of course I dont hate you cause you are always like that.

Nowadays, I hear comments like peeps saying that Im older than you... I smiled :D and you, laughing your way through.

If I want to hurt you with my words, I can do it easily. You have serious facial problems and I often hear peeps and even those innocent kids asking '' Korkor, why do you have so many holes in your face?'' I know you were sad about all those. I didnt use that to attack you despite your words to me. I know you cared alot. So what now? You think you are funny?? No, you arent.

Stop finding fault with peeps around you. I dont know which day I will explode and you better be careful. As for my case, Im used to it. Please control your mouth and dont argue with mummy. I rather you say me ugly fat and yongsui then you two quarrel for no reasons.

You need to learn how to talk nicely to your mum. Whatever she does, she is still your mum
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Flying Season Again

Last 2 days, I was chatting with CL. Knowing that she doesnt really wanna go UK to further study. We cant really blame her for not knowing how many people would love to fly there if they were given the chance to. Her parents didnt quite inform her about her study plans till months ago.So yeah, she was quite lost and unprepared. I dont exactly able to feel how is it like to leave somewhere you been staying since birth and leave people that you bonded throughout the years.

Her words and unwillingness to fly this September dragged me along. Our convo gotten from sad to sadder. Flying off isnt such a cool fun thing after all. You need courage to do that.

Chien flying to London Mid Sept too

JN's flying to UK for her law degree if her results are good enough ( but the thing's her results always good, looks like she will be flying too)

Trina, flying back real soon to Canada and I suppose to hang out with her more often

Sabrina, flying back to Nebraska this Aug after her Raya celebration. My cute friend that's lazy to update her beloved friends about her life. helloooooooo, you gotta update us man! we wanna know what are you doingg.

Crystal, next Feb? 

Now that I gotten used to it to see peeps flying here and there. It hurts me less? Er, I don't know. No time to emo too long, not like they won't come back :):)

Cheers. 

All sorts of friends

Someone that you know since ever?

Someone who been the same primary school as you?

Someone who went through crazy high school moments with you?

Someone who you met in tuition?

Someone that you see occasionally?

Someone who you just met?

Someone who is the same college with you?

Someone who knows you well enough although you guys don't have to say much?

Someone that resembles the one that's always on you mind?

I guess we all have all sorts of friends in different stages of life. Back in my carefree kindergarten days, I remember these bunch of friends that always come to my house to play. Played games that we will never ever play. Something that we will find it childish and lame now...At that moment of time, nothing's really that important. Anticipating to go to classes to meet friends in kindergarten and takes turns to hang around each other house.Then, we soon realised that we are growing up and I mean going up real fast. Although most of us head to the same primary school but we were separated into different classes. That's when we started meeting our new friends. Classmates that sat beside you and new bonds were then formed. Slowly, we no longer mix around with our kindergarten friends. This happens to most of us. I hate the feeling that we were once closed. Once doing things together but not anymore.

Std 4: Gotten real close to a few of them but time seems to wash away our memories together.

Std 5&6 : Our class back then, most of us were quite close. Having dancing practices together for our graduation performance.

After you got so used to your primary schoolmates and there you go, time for us to enter high school. The horrible first day of school when I was Form 1. The awful feeling of not knowing everyone in the class. I only felt better during recess to see a few familiar faces which were my primary mates back then. I always wish to be in the same class with someone for 5-6 years continuously. None of my friends was in the same class with me for more than 2 years. Thought it would be an additional bonus to my high school life if I have a friend like that. Something that I really really miss badly in my high school days were co-curriculum activities I did and people I met along the way. Back then, I was not so expressive.

Katrina, my nicest maju and Leo seniors. Always guiding me and won't make me the gap between us.

Gwee Jia, someone who cant bare to see me taking taxis back home almost everyday and volunteer to give me a ride home everyday. 

Trina, my best Leo and maju bestie! Went through all sorts of crazy stress together and always stand by each other. 

Sabrina, someone who supported me knowing that I get tensed up easily. We always stick together in class and during breaks.

Jun Ning, one sweet girl that misses scouts as much as I do.

Jian Nee, one that always call me for hours to chat on her problems.

HY :) and many many more.

After high school ended, all of them had different plans and flew to different parts of the world. I started to appreciate and wanting to keep a friendship as long as I could. Lost contacts with so many of them and it tends to be a habit of not contacting each other anymore if we don't do so from the very start.

Please take care.

Love, 

Pui Cheng

 Distance sets us further apart once we feel its existence.